My Mosaic

[Jynx]

The turquoisey teal one @Bow ? You have!! I was even thinking that the pink of that wardrobe would look really pretty next to the teal! 

I reckon that could be helpful, especially for Thursday. Is there something nice you could plan for yourself too? Maybe something kinda self-empowering, liiiike idk go axe throwing or something, pretend you're getting payback! Ahaha or like take yourself out for a little treat. Or just eat turtle chips and watch sad tv, you know what it's all very valid 🤣

[Bow]

Pink and teal do look nice together @Jynx  shame I don’t have space in my room for both. 

I could possible try and aim to go have a little treat. I’ve been wanting to go have a manicure for ages. My nails and hands took a real beating while packing and moving and they are in a state! If my SW will be away I could even message my old SW and see if she is free for a bit. I’d like that. 
You know, I even think my mum knows about this anniversary and I could totally just get away with hiding in bed all day. 

[Jynx]

@Bow aww rats! You will have to put a pink run down in front of it maybe. Something with roses might look really cool! 

Oooh I feel a plan a-forming! Maybe text old SW and see if she wants to come for a lil manicure date, maybe a cuppa and a chat, then scurry on home to dive into bed and hide away for the rest of the evening! Maybe even ask your mum if she'll bring you a hot choccie in bed hehe. 

[Bow]

Sounds like a plan @Jynx 

im gonna say goodnight. Just tucked daughter into bed and I’m gonna curl up and try and sleep. Thank you for keeping me company tonight, really appreciate it. I’m sure I’ll be around tomorrow to annoy you some then too 💜

[Jynx]

Teehee, sweet dreams @Bow 😊💜

[AuntGlow]

Hello @Bow, how are you feeling today? 🥰

[Bow]

Hi @AuntGlow  it’s not a good day. Lotsa yucky negative energy pumping through my body. Doesn’t feel nice at all. 

I got up for a little bit. I even drove down to safe haven. I needed to give it a try so my SW doesn’t think I’m just a complete failure. But I couldn’t get out of the car. Sat there angrily crying over how stupid I am. 

came back home and crawled back into bed. 

[AuntGlow]

I can imagine this would feel really overwhelming... you're not alone in this at all - we are with you. @Bow 💛

It truly sounds like you have met your threshold here, and honestly, I think it's amazing that you explored stretching your comfort zone with all you have going on. Even driving there would have been challenging, but you did it. Can we take a moment to acknowledge how much courage that action alone took? 

What support do you think you might need next time you go to Safe Haven?

Bed honestly sounds very comforting right now. What kind of sheets do you have on? ☺️

[Bow]

Yeah true it did take a lot to just drive myself there @AuntGlow  simply getting dressed was hard enough today. 

was going there today to talk to a peer worker and getting some support around keeping safe. Feeling like I need that today.  But instead I just sat in my car. The sun was shining at least. 

just some cotton sheets. 

[Bow]

TW Suicide ideation

Content/trigger warning

I wake up every morning,

Wondering if it’ll ever stop hurting.

All I feel is emptiness and pain,

Nothing makes sense,

Tired of pretending,

Tired of living,

Only pain clouds me,

Drowning any hope I try to hold,

I don’t recognize myself anymore,

Everything makes me wish for dea