My Mosaic

[Jynx]

I got @Bow's assurance then, MOAR crates shall be ACQUIRED muahaha! 

Teehee

How goes the unpacking journey?

[Bow]

It’s definitely a very slow journey @Jynx ! I think most of mine is done. Mum still has heaps of sewing stuff to sort through. 

I picked up a really nice new timber desk top today. Can’t wait to put it all together

our garage is full again! Picked up a table and 6 chairs and a tv unit this morning. Gonna paint them all.

and I some how managed to hurt my neck. So sore. 

my CM was just here. She had a student with her 😩 the subject of my psych going on mat leave came up, but she said need to wait until my psych is back from holidays to discuss it. 😩😩😩

[Jynx]

@Bow ooh will you be able to show it off? 

Oh is it weird having a student there? I imagine some days it'd be a fun, novel thing, but other days it's like 'who dat? what you in my space for!' lol 

Wait so you can't discuss psych leaving till psych gets back? 😵

[Bow]

Yes once all my spaces are complete I shall show them off @Jynx 

I don’t really like it… students. I understand they have to learn somehow, but most of the time when you got deeply personal stuff to discuss it’s a big no for me, although I’m not sure how I’d do that with a home visit… send them to the car? My CM usually comes on her own anyways. But I have definitely been very blunt and said no when I’ve gone to the centre. And I absolutely hate that they never ever give me a heads up!! Rude. 

apparently not. Stupid really. Too bad if I have negative things to say about why I’m keen for a change anyways? I feel like it could potentially be awkward conversation. 4 weeks of living in the complete unknown! Grrrrr 

[Jynx]

@Bow yippee!! 

I think for me, when I put myself in your sitch, it comes down to agency. You're right in that you should at the very least get a heads up. Giving enough info for folks to be able to set their expectations is a great way to provide trauma-informed care. But an even better way is to maybe give agency over whether student presence is wanted or not on a particular day. Cos some days,  (as you know hehe) I can ramble about my recovery stuff for hours. Other days I feel way more fragile, and would hate a stranger in my space.

Agency, transparency, consistency. Super important hey. 

Put all the thoughts and feelings you'd want to express into a journal, a voice note, or chuck it up on here? 

[Bow]

You know what was weird about the situation today @Jynx  was that my CM called me before hand to confirm, and then she said that she would be there shortly she just had to wait for her colleague to finish doing what they were doing cause as you know we have to come in pairs. 

my CM always comes by herself. There might be the very odd and I mean maybe once, where she has had someone else with her on a weekend when she has been doing “team visits” and she will tack her CM visit onto the trip. Same with my old CM, she always came on her own. 

so why not just be flipping honest???

I will always generally not want any students presents. Strangers are a no go. I clam up. I won’t talk much and you’ll just be wasting your time. 

[Jynx]

Obvs I can't say for sure @Bow but if she had a student there, she could have just been like highlighting that 'always in pairs thing' for their sake and not cos she needs that to visit you? I dunno that's where my mind went tho. 

It's kinda like you've got a buffering period or something eh? Where a person is 'unsafe stranger' for a while until they prove safe enough for you to let your guard down. 

Makes sense, your startle response is overtuned to 'stranger danger' for pretty good reason I'd say. Just sucks when it stops you making new connections as easily, or stops you being able to function when a student rocks up unexpectedly!

[Bow]

Maybe @Jynx  but I don’t know. Or maybe cause it’s a new house? Who knows. 

Oh yep, stranger danger to the extreme? Gotta prove/earn trust for me to get to a point where I can open up and let my wall down. Have been hurt way too many times and yeah, just the way I am. 

how are your kitty 🐈‍⬛??

[Jynx]

@Bow hey new house is a pretty big reason! Like 'shelter' is very low on Maslow's hierarchy for a reason! 

They are good! Razz has been really social, actually approaches new people more than Trixie now!! Remind me tomorrow to find a recent photo for ya!! 

Rest up good tonight y'hear!! Or don't, you know, I'm not the sleep police 😝 Teehee nighty night hun 💜

[Bow]

Oh was Razz shy prior @Jynx ? And Trixie the more social one?  Mr Groot is real timid and scares really easy, but his become heaps social. Will come out for a Pat and roll over in the floor. A pic of your furbabies?!

I got Mr Groot a new collar- is heaps cute! 

 

I sorted D’s clothes this morning. Found a box downstairs full of her clothes, so we went through them and put them away.

then I went outside and sorted through some plants. All our plants were just left outside despite a lot of them previously being indoors and some of them were showing signs of not being happy! So repotted some, trimmed a heap and cut some up and stuck them into water to propagate- I have a heap of devils ivy that had lost leaves and had really long tails. Don’t have anywhere to hand all my plants here, I had heaps of plants on the end of my curtain rods at the house, but not here. So having to be creative. But it’s heaps windy outside today! And my neck is still really sore!

currently laying in the couch having a break with a heat pack on my neck. 

how are you today?